Thursday, February 16, 2012

Anticipation, stress and cigarette

My devils start their Winter holidays tomorrow.
What does it mean now for me? It means I gotta learn how to "share" them. I'm not used to not have them close to me.
It's crazy, painful.
For a few days, I'll feel sick inside, I'll keep myself as busy as possible. Sport and friends will be like Heaven. Sweet escape.

I've had a packet of cigarettes  for 2 months. I've smoked one only.
2 others borrowed to friends.
I'll never let cigarettes be an addiction again, but these cigarettes have been truly good. I dream of that cigarette I'll have on one of those evenings, when I will think about the sleeping face of my babes, the peaceful rhythm of their heart. And miss them : )



3 comments:

  1. Le tabac, c'est tabout, on en viendra tous à bout :P

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  2. En plus ça pue et ça donne le cancer... Beurk.
    A big hug to you

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  3. hehe ouais mais 'tain une bonne clope et ça repart, parfois.

    non je vais pas retomber dedans : ))

    big hug back ma jolie

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