I just can't get enough?

Do you know how to prioritize? 'cause I don't. What's important to me right now? Getting on well with the father of my babes? Making money to pay for our nest? Recovering from the emotional injuries? I have no idea. I think money comes first, because it concerns directly my babies. : )

Don't have a conversation with me at the moment. I start my sentences and never finish them. I jump to another topic, there's chaos in my mind, I can't focus on one single thing.

I only try to slow down with the devils sometimes. In the evening. Shhh... I want home to be a warm peaceful nest for them.

But then... when I go to sleep, I'm lost again... In my dreams, chaos: I'm writing resumes, I'm doing gym, I stand in front of my ex's girlfriend (wondering about the look in her eyes), and I talk to my sister.

I want a fireplace, the kitties on my knees, the devils on my sides. I want that, or a good drug, dunno. Well preferably the first choice! lol

Deep inside though I am monowishing, and I plainly dream of that, nothing else.